Stubborness

Stubborness

October 28, 2024 On Saturday, the stubbornness of the sheep scattering across the land instead of heading to their allotment required some pretty intense pressure from me to change their mind. I can get out a bag of alfalfa pellets and still would not be able to control the flock from taking off in all…

I cringe but…

I cringe but…

October 26, 2024 Soon to go up to Waimea, and my friend Heather is coming with me. We will move the fences and get the sheep dewormed. Some of these six-month-old ones are still struggling with parasites, and yet lots of these ewes will be very healthy. I do cringe when giving them medicine, but…

Unnecessary panic

Unnecessary panic

October 25, 2024 Had to calm down after looking for the sheep in Waimea. I use two cellular cameras to check on them when I’m in Kona. When scanning the field with the first one, I panned right and left and NO sheep appeared! Aaah! Then I wanted to check the video logs, but before…

GABA!

GABA!

October 24, 2024 For sometime I’ve noticed a change to my mood after the physical labor needed to move the sheep, fences, water and so on. Just going to a place like planet fitness would probably work but I’m not motivated that way. Motivation. It started when I got Keiko, my service animal. I got…

Daring to dream

Daring to dream

October 23, 2024 I still default to the idea that life’s troubles cause me to find solutions by myself. Traumatic incidents create a fear called “something is about to happen again,” I feel it is imperative to prevent it, and most of the time, it’s not even a life and death situation. I’m discovering one…

Bad idea

Bad idea

October 20, 2024 The physical limits of sheep require that they are able to stay upright on their chest. If they are stuck in the position you see in the video, they will act drunk. If they don’t get up in time, their stomachs expand because they can’t expel their fermenting gas. I set my…

Entering God’s space

Entering God’s space

October 19, 2024 At times, encountering life around me depletes my energy. In the span of one day, I’m considering the fight going on regarding elections, the horror of people swept away by Helene as reported by survivors, the inner struggle among students and staff in our school to sort out existential questions, the pain…